Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Growing Paynes

My heart is breaking today.

Even as I type it these words seem ridiculous and impossible. How am I a mother to such a beautiful young girl?

I don't idolize motherhood, I'm the first to admit I'm not very good at it, but I do cherish the moments I have with my kids.

I love them with all my heart and I make sure they know that every day.

The seemingly innocuous act of nuzzling "I love you" into my 1 year old's ear. Running my fingers through my 4 year old's hair while she's falling asleep. Holding my 5 year old's face in my hands as I stare into her eyes and see my soul.

These people have reached into my depths and formed me into someone I don't recognize. I love three small people more than I will ever love myself or anyone else.


  1. Gosh, I know the feeling. I'm right there with you! :)

  2. There isn't a finer Mommy moment than what you describe. The memories will keep you smiling with a tear in your eye when you're 72.....at least! :-)